By: Riza Mae Amoma
You are loved. You are worthy. You are wonderful. You are beautiful.
When I’ve met people who have moved me closer to someone, these are the statements that hit my head and heart so strongly.
I never imagined I could be this content in my life. I used to try to draw attention from those people around me. I believed that being in a relationship with someone would help me fill the gap in my heart. I desired affection and attention. I dated guys in the hopes that they would make me happy. Even if I was happy, it was just fleeting. There wasn’t any peace throughout the period. It was suffocating.
Pero nganong niabot man ko sa in-ato na sitwasyon?
Looking back, I can see that girl was merely desperate for love. She sought to be heard. She wanted attention. I used to believe that some certain people were to blame for my feelings. They have loved me, for sure, but not in a way that allows me to freely hug them, express my thoughts and feelings, and talk to them about other things I would like to.
Finding someone who will listen to me is how I plan to deal with that. But, whenever I get into a relationship there’s a voice inside of my head saying, “Riz, it is not the right time yet. You don’t deserve this kind of love. You deserve more. You are worthy. Don’t settle for less. “ .
I kept hearing that voice, but I never paid it any attention until I was deeply hurt because, once more, I believed I had finally found someone who could love me the way I wanted to be. But things didn’t work out well. I was offended by how he raised my expectations with a promise. My childish emotion wasn’t reciprocated, which broke my heart.
Psalms 34:18 NIV
[18] The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Hallelujah! I’ll never forget asking God to send me someone with whom I may share my heartaches. He is very kind since He sent a community rather than just one person!
In the UMYong Festival at the University of Mindanao in February 2022, I met people who I can now refer to my family. My BS Architecture senior first invited me to join a lifegroup. Ate Angelie Farañal helped me rebuild my relationship with God and taught me how to be more passionate about my course, for which I am extremely grateful.
She was the president of Youth to the Nations UM, and I had no idea that the Student Organization she oversaw would also make it clear to me how crucial it is to have a relationship with the Holy Spirit.
I’ve been a Christian for three years, and throughout that time I’ve learned about the Holy Trinity—the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. However, I had no idea that we could have a close connection with the Holy Spirit. I didn't know that the voice in my head was the Holy Spirit. He has been with me, but I have never recognized Him. In particular, I didn’t have an intimate relationship with the Holy Spirit.
Having a relationship with the Holy Spirit have transformed me into a growing and glowing Woman of God. A woman whose confidence is not on herself but, in God alone. I am satisfied with His love and I could say He's more than enough! I am joyful and there's a true fulfillment inside of my heart. I am secured in his presence. I can tell now to the whole world that I am fearfully and wonderfully made by God. (Psalms 139:14)
I am loved. I am worthy. I am wonderful. I am beautiful. I was lost and now I'm found.
Dear Woman of God, do not settle for less. You deserve more than that because you're more precious than rubies. Be patient and be the right person first before you enter a relationship.
1 John 4:8 NIV
[8] Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
Before you seek God, He already found you.
Before you seek Love, God already found you.
How amazing it is, right?
Hence, I didn't find love.
God found me, True LOVE FOUND ME.
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