By: Kristine Bilbao
I will share to you how vengeful I was.
When I was still wandering the world, not knowing my purpose yet, I’d love to play the role of
“Maghihiganti ako! Hinding-hindi ako mag-papa api”
And yes, nagagawa ko yun ng madalas.
Even my friends, kahit sila yung naaapi, I was the one who always took vengeance for them. The HERO role per say, ngunit sa maling paraan.
Naaalala ko pa nga nung minsang inaway yung isa kong kaibigan na sa sobrang bait, eh aakalain mo'y parang di marunong magalit sa mundo. Pero sa mga sandaling iyon, nakita ko yung galit at luha sa kanya. Dala ng bugso ng damdamin, pinaghiganti ko siya.
Ang ginawa ko'y kinilala ko yung manliligaw ng umaway (let's name her Stella) sa bestfriend ko na itago rin natin sa pangalang Ronald.
I could say that I was so strategic in doing my revenge for my friend. Naging close kami ni Ronald and we became friends for real. But before that, he doesn’t have any idea na kaya ko siya kinaibigan ay dahil gusto ko lang mag higanti kay Stella and guess what, it was a success!
Sa kabila nun, naging sila pa rin ngunit kalaunan ay naghiwalay din. Nagpatuloy naman ang friendship namin ni Ronald.
Kung iisipin, maling gumamit ng inosenteng tao sa kadahilanang makapaghiganti lamang. Nung una, dulot nito sa akin ay saya. Feeling ko ang galing-galing ko. But then I realized, it wasn't worth it.
Days go by, I definitely had a lot of realizations. My actions were so wrong and someone made me realize that. May nakilala akong tumulong na mabago ang aking nakagawian at pananaw sa buhay. Dahil doon ay napuno ng pagpapatawad at pagmamahal sa kapwa ang aking puso.
Ang dating nakagawiang paghihiganti ay humantong sa pagpapatawad. I learned how to forgive and choose my own battles that really do matters. Honestly, revenge is so tiring and time-consuming. Hindi naman yun ikina-unlad ng buhay ko! It just ruins the design that was originally made for me.
I learned to know about the One who changed me and made me realize things. His name is Jesus, and is continually working in my life. He is doing things for my greater good, and accepted me for who I am, and who I was .
This is just one of the many testimonies that has happened in my life as of now. If you happen to be my friend, surely, you know how I was transformed by God.
Everything is a process.
May iba nga lang na instant transformation just like Paul in the Bible who was previously named as Saul.
But we agree on one thing that is common here, we all have different pacing. Basta’t patuloy lang sa pananalig at pananampalataya, uusad tayo kasama ang Diyos at makakarating sa ating paroroonan.
Just keep the faith and act it out.
I will leave you verses that kept me holding on through any seasons in my life:
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Though you have made me see troubles,
many and bitter,
you will restore my life again;
from the depths of the earth
you will again bring me up.
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You will increase my honor
and comfort me once more.
I pray that whatever you are struggling right now, you will be delivered in Jesus’ name!
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery. -Galatians 5:1 NIV
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